Damn it’s been awhile since I’ve been able to blog… I’ve been literally pushing my limits to the breaking point the last couple of weeks, last night was the THIRD ALL NIGHTER I’VE PULLED THIS WEEK ALONE! Yes that’s utterly stupid to do for someone with health issues like myself plus anxiety and depression but hey; I’m determined to succeed regardless of what it takes. Matter of fact I’m so damn determined to succeed my Ostomy Pouch seal was broken (ok almost broken, it wasn’t leaking but it was on it’s last legs and I NEVER let it get to that point because it’s uncomfortable as fuck), and I STILL went to school without doing the change. That’s when I decided I needed to drop my ridiculous science class, it was supposed to be introductory level Geology for my general education but my instructor treats the 100 level class like a 400 level class. He also told me that “He didn’t want my disability to become an excuse for me missing class” BRO I’VE BEEN IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM TWICE IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS. Trust me I’d rather be in class.
Anyway point is I still proved I could stick out a day with my Pouch not feeling good, which because of my anxiety I could never do before; it means a lot to me whenever I break a new barrier like that (you may not be able to understand if you’re not an ostomate but if you’re pouch doesn’t feel good, your whole day gets jacked up).
The “Single Combat” TV Show is going great, we’ve finished up most of the filming and Match Day is on Saturday! I really hope anyone reading this will attend! It was incredible seeing all the homies debating real important issues like the “Trump Ban on Muslims”, “Immigration” and “Black Lives Matter”. Those are the issues they’ll be holding mutual combat over and they each brought up great points and a lot of passion to the camera! Can’t wait to see what the guys do in the ring, I’m supposed to give a 5 minute speech before everything starts, good thing Public Speaking for some God forsaken reason has never been hard for me (I think it’s because I can’t see all that well and I’m super near sighted, hence I can’t see anyone in the audience properly and my anxiety doesn’t kick in, TAKE THAT GLASSES!”
Also my agent just submitted me for a Snoqualmie Casino Commercial! Cross your fingers that I get it I’m super excited!!! Stay tuned Seattle :D.