It's funny that I'm posting this as my first blog post (not the first one I've written, just the first one I actually published so there might end up being a couple before this when I go back through and update/publish).
This is just something I wrote and posted on my Facebook today, I thought it really applied to how we view our attractiveness as Ostomates as well, hence why I'm putting it here.
"We are told we have to play "The Game" and never show our feelings or that we care 🤔. We are told to put on a mask 🎭🎭🎭 hiding our faults and flaws and never take it off till we're forced too. We are told we aren't allowed to do things like text back too fast because we're anxious to talk to you because it shows we're weak/desperate/needy 😐😐😐. In time the act either breaks our minds or we make it long enough to become what we once despised; egotistical 😈😈😈, narcissistic and having zero emotional attachment👿👿👿.
Find someone that accepts your flaws upfront and unconditionally. If she can't accept that you're a weirdo with massive anxiety issues that gets terrified when you really like someone and they stop responding 💔💔💔. That behind the facade of arrogance and unshakeable confidence, you DO have insecurities and many of them (like any normal human being). If she can't accept that? Then she doesn't deserve you, perhaps you won't attract as many as you would conforming to the generic module of male attractiveness but you will be happy :). I honestly think that's far more important!
Definitely looking forward to finishing ✏✏✏ my book 📚📚📚 about "The Game" and my personal experiences with the passive aggressive nature of today's America. Stay tuned my friends. 😏😏😏💯"
I met a beautiful woman over the weekend who was 10 years older than me, the vibe just seemed so right! We met up for our dates at 8 and 10 respectively both Friday and Saturday, then we ended up staying out together till 4 and 6 AM respectively just making out and talking and enjoying all the beautiful sights Seattle has to offer. That's how good the vibe was, however as usual when I've just gotten out of the hospital (I still have a fairly big hole in my gut from surgery lol), I def showed my feelings WAAAAAAAY too early and I think I scared her off. Was supposed to go to see "The Purge: Election Year" with her and a bunch of my friends last night, she said she had a migraine so I offered to go take care of her while she was feeling ill (just trying to show that I cared). She said she loved the idea but only if I wanted too, she didn't want to stop me from partying with my friends; silly me I said I didn't care about partying with my friends and wanted to spend time with her. Obviously this was a mistake (as anyone who has been in the Pickup Game could tell you.... never show your feelings early and let them know they have you in the bag) so anyway she didn't bother answering her phone or texting me back and I still haven't heard from her. However I learned my lesson (as I always do after the first fling from one of my hospital stays haha) there won't be any contact from my side unless she hits me back up. The neediness and desperation has once again been defeated by me, FUCK YOU ANXIETY I WIN MUAHAHAHAHA!!
There's a reason I will be writing articles for young Ostomates on Dating and Relationships as Millennials, 2016 is a very confusing time for everyone in the Dating Scene, most of all people like myself who are disabled and have really bad anxiety and depression. Don't worry though folks ;), there's a way to get past it!